Big Wheels Keep on Turnin’
What I'm experiencing, is not linear.
What if instead; it's a wheel.
I just had a conversation with some new friends. I shared about experiencing the ebbs and flows—or peaks and valleys, you know, the ups and downs. We apply so many different labels to that feeling of back and forth that happens between days, weeks, months, years, etc.
It's just the way it goes over time. Recently, in that conversation, they offered a different picture. Instead of it being linear—going up and down like peaks and valleys (even though I do live in Squamish)—what showed up was this idea of the wheel.
Which I really loved.
When you're on a wheel, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. And at this point, I think it can be easy to get stuck in feeling like you're under the wheel, wondering if and when it'll ever go back around. And the truth is—that's why it's real.
So theoretically, you do know it will. It's inevitable. It's part of the process.
This gave me a lot of comfort and clarity around how I relate to the way things are on any given day. Has today felt productive? Have I felt like I've moved forward? Does it feel like a backward-sliding day?
Now, these are all internalizations. These are all thoughts and feelings—they're not reality. I can separate them from my reality because I have evidence. I have evidence of everything I’m thankful for and feel good about: the work I get to do (or not do), the potential work coming down the pipe, the conversations I get to have, the people I get to meet.
They all contribute to my wheel turning. And some days, sure, I wish it would turn a little quicker—at least I think so. Who knows?
But inevitably, it will keep going.
And that...that makes me want to keep spinning. Let’s go. Just don’t stop. That’s where I’m at now: don’t stop.
Feel your feels.
Be your beings.
Whatever you need.
Just don’t stop.
